When I think about us

I dont know, its towards the end of the year and so many things have been happening. The people I care about are all having emotional breakdowns. On the phone, you hear their sobs, you want to stop them, but you know you dont have the ability to do so. That feeling sucks, because you know, deep down in your heart, you really really care for them.

How do I do this? I really have no idea.

I now burn all the bad things that has happened in 2010. Leave them here, and start anew. We will all do you proud in 2011, because we know that you'll be up there looking down on us feeling proud for what we have achieved. :)

The truth hurts ♥

The truth hurts, so we lie. How fun, you say. Haha, I think not.

Lies kill. Lying is a sin.

Sometimes, things appear to be beautiful. Just like fairytales. So you may say, you live in fantasy and what not. I appear to have lived it. Once, for 9 months. Those were times, I would never forget. Really, and from then on, I was afraid. I held in my thoughts, I covered the wounds. It was a big thing when I was awaken from my fantasy, because it wasnt kept a secret. Everybody was talking about it. It was something, we had to explain and tell and cry over and over again. I couldnt accept the fact, it was hard. BUT it was reality. And so we woke up and never tried to connect our fantasy again.

Then again, I trapped myself into another whole new fairytale. Not a different chapter but a whole new story. It was very much harder than the previous one. It was a whole new level. It was something that hasnt happened in a long time or rather, never before. I felt different. I start of a new day and end the day with smiles and always thinking of how much better this could be as the day passes. I thank God for even making this happen. God has done wonderful things. Until the truth was revealed. Its like the climax of my part of this fairytale. I dont know what to do now. It seems like, its raining heavily partnered by thunderstorms and lightning dashing loudly and scarily. How hard is it to even not get out of this. but, its tough. Its very hard. Its like Im trapped in this, I do know how to get this over and done with, but yet Im trying to stop the rain.

Oh God, please help me.

I feel my heart skip a beat ♥

Yes I really do. I dont like how people come around me life and just leave without telling me, and then they finally tell me when they are already at the other face of the earth. Because really, I dont think it's very necessary. If you would know that I cannot stand not having you with me, then why bother even being so close to me in the first place.

I really dont know what to say to you, but I know, in the first place, youre somebody that I would remember in a long time. Somebody I would tell my children and grandchildren in the future. because you inspired and coloured my life.

Bye, ladybug. :')

When I stat to think ♥

When I think of something. I take a long time. I'll consider, then re-consider, them sometimes think of the consequences. I really dont like putting myself into thinking mode, just in case I get emotional. I dont know, but some decisions are really hard to make. Sometimes I really hope that my parents will sit down and listen to my side of the story, because I want to make that decision. Im a big girl, I want to do what's in store for me in the future, with the things I want to do. BUT no, they think Im too young; they think I cannot make BIG decisions, because this decision now, affects my future.

They always think theyre right, I held it in. I always did. I would do things to please them. Getting the grades they want, saving money for tuition, doing extra chores of what they dont notice of, participating in international competitions to make them proud etc. because I love them.

Until today, I feel so spoon-fed. I mean, really? Why must they make a decision for me that will affect my future? I dont know what to do. I really need to learn to overcome the subjects I detest, clear all my doubts and start getting back on track.

2011, I pray that this year, would be one of the best years. A year that I would remember, just like 2010. :D

Bugsies ♥

I dont know. Today was some weird day. I got to meet this guy, 16 of age, but seriously, I thought he was 12. Dexter. I wouldnt say youre awesome because you know that you already are. Pffts. I dont want to blog about you. >:)

Dinner at uncle Chew's place, was awesome. There was this gay dude, that I would remember. He's so funny. Talk about hand actions lah. Hahaha. :)

Bye.

Silver, golden and red Balls ♥

Christmas Dinner in Hilton with Jordan teaching me how to be fat. :(

Blessed Jolly Christmas, friends. :)

Suddenly, it was Christmas. It was so sudden. Really, then I come to remember of putting up the Christmas decorations with Joseph, Makarious, Justin and Jude. It was so fun, I remember our lion joke, the "WHO DOES HUEI MINN LIKE" game, and see whose skin is thicker game.

Anyway, since today was christmas and a few of us involved in the production had to reach church at supposedly 4am, but I haggled my time till 5am. Finally reached the latest, before Luke at 5.45am. Whoops. :)

Lighting crew and stuff was awesome. Really. Then we had lunch over at Uncle Allen's. Got home and chilled then off to dinner at Hilton. I like how the train go choo choo and the little children chase after them.

Bye.

Colourful Swirls ♥

Christmas eve. How nice. You spend your time with your loved ones. I, on the other hand, spent my morning with 2 fairly awesome guys. Namely, JJ and Ean. Jealous much? I even have my side of proof, what about you? (:

Everybody is busy. Especially my brother, rushing in and out from church along with his new church buddies. Im so jealous. No, really. I am. :)

Candy canes are scary. Theyre canes that you can hit people with. Tim Koh is getting me a bundle. Shucks, this better be good. :P

Till Christmas, my neighbours are all having their fellowship. Its going to be a crazy night, with beautiful fireworks. I like the red and purple one. Just not the green and yellow ones. (:

When your eyes were wide open ♥

I come to know of things.

Things about me being the oldest, but Im still always the shortest. Oh cheer up Hueiminn, theyre just too tall. :)

Hello;

PMR results were announced today. I had pressuring friends that came to busybody up everything. Namely, Justin, Rachel, Shanice, Jackson and Benjamin. They made me cry. ):

So anyway, results were to be announced at 10am. Knowing I couldnt sleep last night, I obviously overslept even though my phone was blasting merry music. cough. So, mummy decided to rush to school. See, she was way more excited/scared than I was. We all had butterflies in our stomachs.

We were reaching school, and then I started crying, in the car. I was too scared. Its not funny, because I know alot of you did too. Nicely knowing, some awesome dude had his car beside me taking pictures of my crying. Good lah you. :)

We were late for school but nobody got their results yet. So, we waited. Started crying, pushing everybody to stand in front because we were too scared. It wasnt the best feeling, at all. Mathews announced the percentage of straight As and all that. Knowing we had really high percentages, as students, we panicked, even MORE. Straight A's = 158/180 students. Seriously? Scare the shit out of me.

Today was a good day. I feel so blessed. I really thank God for what Ive achieved and really, all the glory goes to God, because I know, without him, being one of the straight A's students? Seriously? That would be pretty much impossible. really. Im not smart, at all. Hahah. Congratulations to you people, as well. :)

and to all who prayed for me as well. Luke, Darren and I will still never forget how nicely Isaac prayed for me. Super prayer message, ftw! :)

Christmas shopping with Joe and Bran after that was awesome. Today was an awesome day. :)

When we aint falling apart ♥

Mentari teaser buddies. :)

Hello;

Today was an awesome day. Woke up late, so knowing my brother has GTCI, I had to rush through everything. It was my fault, and we only got to know, we were... the earliest, and well, way before time. Way the go, Gid. :)

So, while roaming around, we bumped into familiar faces. Dylan and ZhuEn. And we all know, ZhuEn will walk up to me telling me.. "Oh huei minn, nice weather". So, ZEE. ;)

GTCI was awesome only until I got to know that, I had to impromptu-ed what I was going to say, because they decided to interview me as well. It was hard because, well. I didnt go for my projects. Only once. Yeah, very irresponsible but I had my reasons. So does, Darren, Justin, and Luke. :)

We had church at night when my lighting buddies were being very sarcastic. It was awesome. I liked how, we ended only at 11.30pm and receiving 7 miss calls from Brandon, just only because he wanted to say...

"Huei Minn, all the best for tomorrow. Big day tomorrow! We laser tag if you dont get straight As."

-My gay bestfriend, Brandon Teoh. :)

Shizzz, this reminds me...

PMR results it tomorrow. Im crying myself to sleep tonight, with fear, cold and anxiousness. No, Im actually very excited. I believe in faith. hahah. :)

I got you ♥

Hello;

PMR results are going to be out this week. My GA(s) of both years are busy with church and migrating themselves into Aussie. Crap, I feel so insecure. They were my GAs for a reason? Please lah.

BYE. ;)

Jolly Christmas everyone!

When we break the silent ♥

Eustace, David and Jaclyn.

Hello;

Conference is over. and it was good. Just maybe, I dont know. I thought last year's was better. Something I would never forget about conference is my project buddies. Namely, Darren, Justin, Jude, Fish, Jedida, Ben Liew, Tim Liew, Jia Jiet, Ian Choong, John Lim, Zhu Wei and a few more others. I like how we sat at the edge of the bus waving at random people also talking about food and going to sleep.

I come to know of 2 new dancing partners of mine this conference. Isaac and Zhu Wei. How much we danced cha cha with the little kids. Those were good times. I also like our chicken dance moments. Cha cha slide is still the best. because ZhuWei and I cannot differentiate our left and rights. :)

I think I should really get serious with blogging now. Heeh. :P

Bye.

I will never ask you to change ♥

Conference is in another few hours time. Skyping my Guardian Angel in the middle of the night is awesome. I come to know of me being scary. also very afraid for next Thursday. I shall read the papers before going to church later. :)

When he ages ♥

Hello;

I always like it when daddy's birthday is around the corner. Only because I get to see him more often. Usually, I dont. I get whatever I want, but I seemingly dont see my parents often. Simply because I wake up earlier than them during school days and my parents seems to get home really late at night.

So today was daddy's birthday, also had sessions of catching up with people I love. Joe and Bran. One of the most important people in my life. Now, supposedly. :)

Today was a great day. :]

When you held me ♥

Ive been spending much of my time with this talley nowadays. :)

Going to church and spending the whole day there, isnt so bad afterall.

"We will all feel so proud when we step here on Sunday" says Justin.

I like the idea of Jude cycling to church with a bicycle or a tricycle. I also like how he finishes my lunch without letting anyone touch bottles around him. Today was also pink day, Justin and I wore pink to church and Ben Gan was hyper. He like pink uniforms. Hahah. :)

I super cannot wait for lights training tomorrow.

I get to see the scary Darren and then expect things from him. (:

When the ocean hugs the shore♥

• Laser tag was awesome. :)
• Rapunzel was a disappointment.
• I realised everytime in the movies, James sits beside me.
• I find watching guys bowl funny, boring and scary at the same time
• I dont like going to the arcade.
• I like how strong James is.
• I find spending my time with JiaCherng, James and Isaac very unproductive.
• James and Isaac made me laugh.
• James and Isaac were very mean to me.
• I fattened James up with Ice Cream.
• James loves olives.
• James spat juice on me.
• Isaac was being very nice today.
• Isaac was my sitting buddy for the last 5 months.

I feel retarded. Today was awesome. I like Chicky and Duckie. Im going to miss my cow cow when she flies to Aussie, without me and start dating hot guys I dont know of. She always makes me jealous with her patches. SO COW. ):

Thats why I had you in mind ♥

Spanish Girl watcher. I also own alot of his things.

Expensive things, because he was my partner for LeoAmazingRace. :)

& he was my funny buddy. No, not funny bunny. :D

Today was such a boring day. Everybody was so emotional today. I dont wanna talk about it, but I'll pray for each one of you. SIB buddy, you better cheer up, I want my tickets for Madworld, then I'll sit with you. :P

I finished my Science research about Catalyst. I actually regret choosing that topic. If you havent started on holiday homework, I reckon you choose either Melanoma or Electrostatic Precipitator. really, or you'll have to blame yourself. Im in chapter 14 for Novel. Im only sharing my answers with people I love. Ask me and I'll think about it. *keep your fingers crossed*. x)

Someday I'll tell you ♥

Hello;

We had our long awaited piano concert today. That super adorable boy beside me, is my boyfriend. At least thats what he told everybody, he even told his father he likes me. He's 8 and he's a gentleman, really. He got me water, and applied his ladies first policy. He's swiss, and if only he was 15 or older. *big wide smile*

Anyway, Jackson gave me a surprise call this morning. He was lucky Im awake, it was so early. He's so nice. & all the texts I received was very encouraging. :)

At least I didnt screw up. because during rehearsals, I forgotten my lyrics and all. It was cool during the performance. I had the loudest applause from Zachary. Haaha. I also like the part where I forgotten one line and impromptu-ed with my own words. Heehe. That was vocals.

Choir was scary. I was standing underneath the cover of the grand piano, risking my life. & Jon was practically laughing at my shortness. Its always the height, but I know Im not short. :)

After that was church. Ben was in Singapore, so my lights buddies and I had to manage the lights system, ourselves. It was fun, and everything went well. It was an awesome day, until I got home, at least. The electricity was off from 6pm-1am. I also found out Zhu En was telling everybody my secrets of which only both of us and Edwin share about.

I was so bored, I read another book. Im listening to Mathews' advices. Im feel like an angel. :)

I have a dream ♥

Beijing, yay! :)

Hello;

I had a very very very terrible nightmare yesterday. I cannot remember the last time I had a nightmare, but it was a long time ago. It was a very horrible nightmare, I woke up crying. Really. Maybe its because of the book I read before I slept. or, Hao Yi's sister. *flahbacks of ladybug, shizz*

As a result, I wanted to watch Rapunzel really badly. So I made Jon follow me. But instead he decided to ditch me because he thinks its a cartoon and cartoons never turn out nice. Pffts. There was also a hyper room naming Bach. Hahah. It was funny. I like Steve and Joshua, but Boey just scares me. I cannot wait to see them again tomorrow. :)

Rapunzel was stupid. There were no seats at all. I was so angry and I promise to try again on Monday, just not MidValley anymore. So, my brother picked "the next 3 days". It was so boring, I died, literally. & I had to make him explain the title of the movie to me. We also had the best of ice creams today. Then we got shock in the eye at Robinsons' before heading home. :)

Tomorrow's piano concert. I have to memorise my vocals. Bye. :)

My hopes are rising ♥

School was so fun. I saw the unexpected. Im so happy. :)

Who said our canteen is under renovation? *stares at Mathews*. :(

When I caught you ♥

No, I didnt crop Eugene out, it was the Photographer's fault. :)

It's December. and it's going to be a great month. Im so excited for school tomorrow. Heeehehe. Duckie is a very big cheater. She bluffed. :(

This computer is so laggy. Facebook has issues with me. Big issues. ):

When my hands are cold ♥

Hello;

"Oh look! Huei Minn updated her blog, lets check it out."

"Huei Minn, why are you so lifeless? A blog post with 2 lines. Seriously?"

So what, if my blog post is 2 lines, Aaron, Dominick and you other people? I like posts with 2 lines, to save up time.

I havent laughed so much since after my Beijing trip. Thank you, GA. I also realised, when youre angry, YOU SPEAK REALLY FAST! No, maybe not when youre angry, just when youre complaining. I liked your swing picture. & we shall sing when we skype the next time.

We'll sing, THANK YOU FOR THE MUSIC. Really. :)

BLEH ♥

I miss these PPMC-tards. :)

Today was a very unproductive day. People around me has done much of convincing me to die with them, someday. Also, wondering if Im willing to die to save their lives. I have no answers.

Tomorrow is December. Im so excited. 1 more month to go, and we're done with 2010. Yay! PMR results will be released in another 28 more days. I can die. So calendar, time, clock, please pass by really slow. Thank you. :P

BLEH.

I ask in all honesty ♥

Hello humans!

Im back from Beijing and Im so jealous of pretty people. Really. :(

I went skiing and twisted my right leg, again. Really. :(

When I swallow all my pride ♥

Hello;

Dont commit suicide! It's stupid.

I like pretty people. I like boys. I like you.

Because of Aaron, im having a sugar rush.

Im going to do something stupid.

Im going to die.

Im going to be MIA! :)

I have a hot boyfriend! :)

I swear this is true ♥

Today officially marks the last day of school, last day being with the M-tards, last day being in lower secondary, last day being a form3 in WMS, last day of Mathews, last day of... most of the things we do in school. Even maybe, choir. I pray. :)

So. Today we had Mathew's farewell. It was sad. I teared. NO. It's not funny. Prinesh told me if I cried, the whole school could see because I was sitting on the gallery, which was very true. Disadvantages of sitting on the gallery singing for choir every occasion.

After that it was hugging and crying time. It was a very solemn scene. Its like, red-eye day. If tomorrow I gain pimples on my face, it's definitely all the guy's sweat. No, they didnt kiss me, their face just had contact with mine. No, nothing obscene, maybe.

Im going to miss you egg tarts next year when we're in Form4 studying our heads out for SPM the following year. Hopefully. :)

The revolution of Love ♥

Recess Revolution Gathering. :)

Hey.

Today was an awesome day. We had the street team to our school today for Recess Revolution and was inspired. Miracles happened, as well. It was hard to get the principal's approval at the beginning but we prayed and had faith in all of us. By God's grace, every problem was solved 30 minutes before they reached the school. How awesome is our God. :)

The ones I can choose ♥

I like cute guys. Look at Lerman! ♥

I like boys with nice eyes.

Something about us ♥

Hello;

Class party is over and done with. 3C and 3W were the best classes to hang around in. As for James, he thought our class was the best. & one of those great factors were, because I was sitting next to him. How nice. He's on the way to Spain to stare at hot chicks. I wanna do that too, just that I wanna stare at the opposite gender. :)

3C's theme was halloween. It was good. We watched horror movies and their class was probably the most visited and crowded class for this year. It was fun screaming our heads off everytime a scary scene pops up. and when youre outside, you think it's an amusement park. In 3W, we had cake fight. It was fun. I also like Ricky very much. :)

After cake attack, we were all chocolatey and the form1's sprayed water on us. It was so fun that I didnt want that day to end.

bye.

& because Earth is only my temporary home ♥

Hey;

So. Our Barbeque party and sleepover is over and done with. & I thought it was awesome. With the whole cg and Form 3's catching up. Also, it was our CG farewell, it seems. I liked Dylan being selfish with his marshmallows. & all of us, eating raw bloody meat. I also will never forget the taste of the yogurt fruit salad in a long time. I like strawberries and everything that has to do with strawberries, if you havent know. Except for strawberry beverages, candies, gummies and sweets. Theyre not nice. :)

After awhile. It was our photoshoot of various poses of people being proud of their, body parts. Example. Faces. Bodies. Arms. Eyes. :)

I also would never forget how much Ben made me sad because he could solve something in half an hour when I couldnt in already 5 years and still counting. Janice was better. She needed not less than 10 minutes. Smart people. :(

Watching football with guys are super epic. I will never forget this day. While the guys were screaming at my TV screaming for both A. Villa and ManU, Janice was bouncing on my pink bouncy ball while Justin had attempts to be drunk by consuming shandy. Results of attempt is pretty obvious. Failed. They finally left around 11.15-11.30pm feeling guilty for disturbing my parents. :)

LATER that night. There was the things we usually do. Bonding and camwhoring. Nope, gossiping wasnt allowed, just maybe a little complaining and Mandy was being a facebook stalker. We also discussed about fruits being acidic or alkaline. Science. :)

Jedida and Janice dozed off to dreamland early that night. Not very early, just maybe a little earlier than planned. & Mandy, Sel and I discovered a 2 year expired strawberry lotion that smells exactly like real strawberry. How.. nice. I never even remember this existed. Its good. :)

Because Im not supergirl ♥

Hello;

Someone's being a big ditcher tomorrow, all for Aussie date with the kangaroos. Im so jealous. :(

The Japanese came today. and so I obviously went to school. There were NO hot guys. Except maybe the guy with the red shirt laces that got injured. Poor him. General knowledge quiz in the morning was a killer. It was so boring, I started looking at the feathers of shuttlecocks and finally named em, frosty christmas trees. That was how boring the quizzes were, from form1 right up to form3. Yes, that bad. ):

School was so empty today. The form3s has always hold the record of the least attendance, and Im actually very proud of it. :P

I also think some guy is weird. No names to be mentioned but you people probably know who, if youre from wms. because he is the creepiest guy ever. & he creeps me out. He's also a thief taker. So I had to hold my candies really tightly. No, I wasnt being selfish, just that he's so rude and not like I didnt share my candies with other people. ):

I just got back from church. I think, it's time to sleep. Difficult is so difficult to play. I cant even pass level1. Im such a failure. ):

Of the cherries in the garden ♥

Hello;

I swear. When I grow up. I want to be nothing like you. From head to toes. You make me sick. Also, after all the tears Ive shed for you. I realised, its not worth it. I dont hate you, I just despise your attitude.

Because we had a reason ♥

Hello;

The Japanese are coming tomorrow. :)

I so cannot forget what ladybug said to me right after our papers we sat for during PMR. I cant recall the subject but it was super funny. All that from a guy who wants to fit in. Poor thing. :)

Today was very unproductive. but. It was a very fast day. Im not very sure of the time right now because my MSN is being retarded. The clock on the computer is also being very sarcastic. It says its 6.24AM. Hahah. Im sure it's about 4 or 5pm something now already. :)

I just submitted my mail to Joel for our Recess Revolution interview which will be pretty soon. Hopefully. I should really stop procrastinating important things and events. Example, the BBQ. I need to confirm attendance and the sleepover. Shucks. It's so hard and unorganised. :(

I also skipped school today. Just to make sure I clean up my room and it will be presentable to the girls that will be re-crashing them again SOON. Results : EPIC FAILURE. :(

I cannot wait for the sexiest day tomorrow, Eugenia.

Im sure tomorrow will be a blast. :P

Because I dont want to be told ♥

Hello;

I havent been very consistent here. It's tough. Im getting old, I need more sleep and rest. Darren is still older. 16 is big age. :)

School has been fun. With Patriotic Singing competition. English Drama. Festival Decorative and the sports in the afternoon. They guys had boys brigade today, I was so jealous. No, it doesnt mean I want to join, its just that, they were having so much fun. I wanted to play the clapping and the water passing game. The girls had fun too. We even placed 1st for decorating the kolam thingy.

I also was walking around with 6 packs with a diaphragm. Not fats. Sean, TzyYang, Eugene and the other guys, I would start poking you people all over again if you call my diaphragm fat. & I like the way Sean said,

"Hueiminn, stood out today with her 6 packs with all her different boyfriend's name on it."

The guys in school look so much hotter when they're tan now. Wesley lack of hotness. :)

We had new students taking entrance exam to enter our school. Daniel is so obsessed with ugly girls. Shizz, I didnt say that, I typed that out. You can take back the love knot you gave me earlier today. Or all the 5 youve made for me. I dont mind. I dont like making your girlfriends jealous. :)

I learnt a new song with Yvonne, Elaine and Emily. That was the only fun thing that happened today. It has such a jolly rhythm to it. Which made my day alot better from. something or rather someone.

LEO meeting this afternoon was tiring. Its all your fault, Darren. You owe me hours of sleep. No phone talking with you on weekdays anymore. :)

Im wonderstruck ♥

These are the people who knows about my secrets. :)

Post examinations this year is not exciting at all. I dont feel the urge of going to school and get all nervous and scared for matches of games to be played, not like the previous years. This feeling sucks. Also knowing, how many matches we lost already. I dont really mind losing, it's just kinda hard to believe. No, I wasnt being sarcastic.

I also went for my first LEO meeting today. I had the scariest feeling ever. Dont ask. Just guess. :)

Singing like a bird ♥

Schumann's concert. :)

Hello;

Happy 31st of October. :)

Attempt of my cg leader: Wear halloween constumes to church.

FAILED.

Schumann's concert was overall kinda awesome. Though, I wasnt exactly deeply touched by the pieces and singing by the singers of different parts. Example, Alto, Soprano, Mezzo-Soprano and the others. Bumped into many many familiar faces in the hall, from teachers, to friends from both, church and school. How awesome. And it was also the day, I made friends with someone from school. Samuel. (:

I dont want to talk about the concert. It was just good. There were no hot guys, except the page-flipper. who already has a girlfriend.

Turning everything around ♥

Hello;

Looks like my pre-holidays are warming up, though most of the days have been really really unproductive but it's all the fun that was suppose to be enjoyed before PMR when I was studying my head off. So, Im just actually replacing the joy. :)

Penang trip is over and done with. Now, post-exams. Schumann's concert. Camerons (hopefully). Genting gathering. Beijing. Hopefully all of these activities goes well. :P

BYE! =]

cus there's us against the world ♥

I suddenly found this old picture. ;)

Hello;

Today I went back to school, hearing everything similar to..

"Hey huei minn, you are lucky you came, yesterday there were no girls present in class. Mdm was pissed."

"Huei Minn, you can prove that our class is not a gay class anymore!!!" (You people could guess who this is)

"Huei minn, you know, yesterday there were only 8 people present, and they were all boys."

How cute. :)

I'd like to witness that, actually. Form3's are always like that anyway. 3W with 9 people and what not. I havent given my excuses for being absent in awhile. I have been really getting into my homeroom's nerves. No, not exactly. Just a little, maybe. Im not even incharge for the patriotic singing competition. Oh wells. :)

We didnt have our captainball today, so there was all up to "Playhouse Wesley" to entertain me. It was boring, and finally ended up in the lecture theatre watching Toys Story 2 with some retarded form2s and Brandon laughing so loud, we were all distracting the other people watching the movie. As if they havent watched Toys story. Pffts. So I dont entirely feel guilty at all. Except 1 part where.. never mind. *smiles widely*

We had the worst house party of 3 years, Ive attended. So yeah. Mickey, you were lucky you werent here. They gave us.. melted ice cream and canteen food-free. Form1 was the best, because I cannot remember what they served us. :)

The last one standing ♥

Hello;

Im getting my butt back to school tomorrow. Yay! There's so many things to look forward to, tomorrow. I hope our captainball competition starts tomorrow, along with the carnival and our house party. :)

I need to cheer myself up. So dont rub it in.

or burst the round bubbles. :)

Because it's all burning at the back of my head ♥

Hello;

It has been awhile. After Sunday, I never felt any better. I had the urge to apologize yet my heart stops me. I couldnt decide what is best for me, you and the people around us. Ive been drowning in my thoughts about the same thing over and over again almost every night. Ive been getting really long hours of sleep to avoid you, skipping school every alternate day because I know you'd be there. I really need to get these complications out of my head. I always believed that all these things happen for a reason, and I already know the answer to it.

Thank you for even stepping into my life.

Closing up the fear ♥

This was last year on the way to Disneyland. (;

Hello;

Anyway, I realised I havent done a proper post about how nicely PMR ended, so it'll be now. & people have been pretty much complaining about my dead blog. Its not like I did it on purpose, I just, didnt have the time. So my counter paid the price as well. );

Wesley Methodist School. I dont know, but whenever I say my school's name in full, my heart beats a little faster. So I like to say it short. Wesley. & how much worries Im having right now thinking I will not be able to make it next year. Im not like Josh. ):

I had to stick these reminders all over the walls in my room. Just so that I'll get frighten myself. It doesnt work. most of the time. The frights only started haunting me, 2 days before PMR. When Jemimah's attempts actually worked. Skipping school for studying is bad, but thats what I did. Ended up wasting my time watching ugly betty, spongebob and America's Next top model, most of the time. );

There were so much homework. Everyday. Its crazy how the teachers give all these homework and expect us to study 4 and a half hours each school day. and 10 hours on weekends. I obviously didnt obey them. Stacks and stacks of worksheets and books to be done and we practically could finish one whole workbook a day.

This is like our intensive revision programme. There's all the dates stated and prepared for us. How much they want us to do well in our exams. Also, Im sure all of us did well.

It was really awesome when I had so many people calling, praying and wishing me during exams. And how many times I cried over the phone, because I was too afraid. How Aaron and his super powers could shut me up and made me feel better. How funny all the text booming I did with everyone and only come to realise ChunYang and Dominick loved me so much. Cough. (;

And because the papers were not to say tough. Just average. Most of us already know our results. & they were all very satisfying and awesome, no? (;

Then we had our Form4 Entrance exam. Those were tough times after so long having not been doing Wesley standard papers, the exam was a killer. & they were form4 standard, so its unblammable. and how so many people didnt bother to do the papers and sleep straight away when we entered the exam hall or having much intention to draw ducks in 3 of their history essays. *coughchingcough*. I even screwed up English paper. and its very predictable for me getting Set3 english for the first time in my whole life. );

Now, its all over and done with. Getting up at 3 in the morning to study til 5 and get ready for school, because I spent the whole night doing homework, studying in church and then got scoldings. COUGH. Stopped facebooking, stopped MSN, stopped blogging. Stopped going out for important family gatherings and birthdays. Stopped bothering about my friends and staying in the library to study during lunch periods or simply spending my time in the homework room to do homework. Ignoring long calls. etc. And all these nasty habits are over and done with. YAY! Or as Brandon would put it, "YIPEE". :]

I hate how much Mathews forget to announce that we're having a week off next week. ):

It's so unfair and pointless going to school now.

Of the rainbow monkeys I know ♥

PMR is OVER. ;)

and that teddy doesnt have to hold that timetable ANYMORE.

Hello;

PMR is over. Today was a great day because we sang rainbow monkeys, talked about spongebob, powerpuff girls and test on cell receptors. Also, the most disgusting thing happened today. Sorry Jon. ):

Then it was exam time. I dont know, but LivingSkills was by far the most difficult and also our last paper for PMR, and there's still Entrance Exam for the wait. Yes, Im more afraid for Entrance exam than PMR. What if they kick me outta school? Oh no.

So many things happened in the past 2 months.

& I think Ilike him, he's so funny.

Im shit serious about this.

OH NO. )':

& Im lucky just to linger in your life ♥

I'll be heading off to KLIA, later.

to leave this stupid booger.

BYE CRAZY, I will miss your retardedness as you buy souvenirs for me on your holiday. :P

Hello;

It's the holidays, again. for 2 weeks but I get 3. If we're of the same school, or you just love me too much, you would have noticed me not been in school for the whole week. I twisted my right foot and wasnt able to walk until Wednesday night. but it's getting better. Thanks for the prayers, animals. :)

As a student in Wesley, holidays wouldnt be holidays without THAT MUCH of homework eh? Yoong Keat counted our history homework and we have a total of 7 books to complete. (4300 questions) only on History. How thoughtful. Thats only history, there's still bunch and chuncks of Science, Living Skills, Maths, BM, English and 2 books of Geography. I can die just looking at those books, really. & we havent even started on the worksheets. But then it's in a month. The horror is dwelling within my soul. :(

My brother will also be a ditcher, going to Bangkok with our family. So, Id say, I will be ditched this holiday. Thanks a lot, twisted ankle. Nope. Not home alone, my dad will be around, but then he's also out most of the time. Im such a sad case. :')

Yes yes, I also decided to update this darn thing, because. Aaron told me to. :P

I'll just end this post with this picture. :)

I thought it'd be a good way to start saving the earth. Im done with Step 1. :P