When I think about us

I dont know, its towards the end of the year and so many things have been happening. The people I care about are all having emotional breakdowns. On the phone, you hear their sobs, you want to stop them, but you know you dont have the ability to do so. That feeling sucks, because you know, deep down in your heart, you really really care for them.

How do I do this? I really have no idea.

I now burn all the bad things that has happened in 2010. Leave them here, and start anew. We will all do you proud in 2011, because we know that you'll be up there looking down on us feeling proud for what we have achieved. :)

The truth hurts ♥

The truth hurts, so we lie. How fun, you say. Haha, I think not.

Lies kill. Lying is a sin.

Sometimes, things appear to be beautiful. Just like fairytales. So you may say, you live in fantasy and what not. I appear to have lived it. Once, for 9 months. Those were times, I would never forget. Really, and from then on, I was afraid. I held in my thoughts, I covered the wounds. It was a big thing when I was awaken from my fantasy, because it wasnt kept a secret. Everybody was talking about it. It was something, we had to explain and tell and cry over and over again. I couldnt accept the fact, it was hard. BUT it was reality. And so we woke up and never tried to connect our fantasy again.

Then again, I trapped myself into another whole new fairytale. Not a different chapter but a whole new story. It was very much harder than the previous one. It was a whole new level. It was something that hasnt happened in a long time or rather, never before. I felt different. I start of a new day and end the day with smiles and always thinking of how much better this could be as the day passes. I thank God for even making this happen. God has done wonderful things. Until the truth was revealed. Its like the climax of my part of this fairytale. I dont know what to do now. It seems like, its raining heavily partnered by thunderstorms and lightning dashing loudly and scarily. How hard is it to even not get out of this. but, its tough. Its very hard. Its like Im trapped in this, I do know how to get this over and done with, but yet Im trying to stop the rain.

Oh God, please help me.

I feel my heart skip a beat ♥

Yes I really do. I dont like how people come around me life and just leave without telling me, and then they finally tell me when they are already at the other face of the earth. Because really, I dont think it's very necessary. If you would know that I cannot stand not having you with me, then why bother even being so close to me in the first place.

I really dont know what to say to you, but I know, in the first place, youre somebody that I would remember in a long time. Somebody I would tell my children and grandchildren in the future. because you inspired and coloured my life.

Bye, ladybug. :')

When I stat to think ♥

When I think of something. I take a long time. I'll consider, then re-consider, them sometimes think of the consequences. I really dont like putting myself into thinking mode, just in case I get emotional. I dont know, but some decisions are really hard to make. Sometimes I really hope that my parents will sit down and listen to my side of the story, because I want to make that decision. Im a big girl, I want to do what's in store for me in the future, with the things I want to do. BUT no, they think Im too young; they think I cannot make BIG decisions, because this decision now, affects my future.

They always think theyre right, I held it in. I always did. I would do things to please them. Getting the grades they want, saving money for tuition, doing extra chores of what they dont notice of, participating in international competitions to make them proud etc. because I love them.

Until today, I feel so spoon-fed. I mean, really? Why must they make a decision for me that will affect my future? I dont know what to do. I really need to learn to overcome the subjects I detest, clear all my doubts and start getting back on track.

2011, I pray that this year, would be one of the best years. A year that I would remember, just like 2010. :D

Bugsies ♥

I dont know. Today was some weird day. I got to meet this guy, 16 of age, but seriously, I thought he was 12. Dexter. I wouldnt say youre awesome because you know that you already are. Pffts. I dont want to blog about you. >:)

Dinner at uncle Chew's place, was awesome. There was this gay dude, that I would remember. He's so funny. Talk about hand actions lah. Hahaha. :)

Bye.

Silver, golden and red Balls ♥

Christmas Dinner in Hilton with Jordan teaching me how to be fat. :(

Blessed Jolly Christmas, friends. :)

Suddenly, it was Christmas. It was so sudden. Really, then I come to remember of putting up the Christmas decorations with Joseph, Makarious, Justin and Jude. It was so fun, I remember our lion joke, the "WHO DOES HUEI MINN LIKE" game, and see whose skin is thicker game.

Anyway, since today was christmas and a few of us involved in the production had to reach church at supposedly 4am, but I haggled my time till 5am. Finally reached the latest, before Luke at 5.45am. Whoops. :)

Lighting crew and stuff was awesome. Really. Then we had lunch over at Uncle Allen's. Got home and chilled then off to dinner at Hilton. I like how the train go choo choo and the little children chase after them.

Bye.

Colourful Swirls ♥

Christmas eve. How nice. You spend your time with your loved ones. I, on the other hand, spent my morning with 2 fairly awesome guys. Namely, JJ and Ean. Jealous much? I even have my side of proof, what about you? (:

Everybody is busy. Especially my brother, rushing in and out from church along with his new church buddies. Im so jealous. No, really. I am. :)

Candy canes are scary. Theyre canes that you can hit people with. Tim Koh is getting me a bundle. Shucks, this better be good. :P

Till Christmas, my neighbours are all having their fellowship. Its going to be a crazy night, with beautiful fireworks. I like the red and purple one. Just not the green and yellow ones. (:

When your eyes were wide open ♥

I come to know of things.

Things about me being the oldest, but Im still always the shortest. Oh cheer up Hueiminn, theyre just too tall. :)

Hello;

PMR results were announced today. I had pressuring friends that came to busybody up everything. Namely, Justin, Rachel, Shanice, Jackson and Benjamin. They made me cry. ):

So anyway, results were to be announced at 10am. Knowing I couldnt sleep last night, I obviously overslept even though my phone was blasting merry music. cough. So, mummy decided to rush to school. See, she was way more excited/scared than I was. We all had butterflies in our stomachs.

We were reaching school, and then I started crying, in the car. I was too scared. Its not funny, because I know alot of you did too. Nicely knowing, some awesome dude had his car beside me taking pictures of my crying. Good lah you. :)

We were late for school but nobody got their results yet. So, we waited. Started crying, pushing everybody to stand in front because we were too scared. It wasnt the best feeling, at all. Mathews announced the percentage of straight As and all that. Knowing we had really high percentages, as students, we panicked, even MORE. Straight A's = 158/180 students. Seriously? Scare the shit out of me.

Today was a good day. I feel so blessed. I really thank God for what Ive achieved and really, all the glory goes to God, because I know, without him, being one of the straight A's students? Seriously? That would be pretty much impossible. really. Im not smart, at all. Hahah. Congratulations to you people, as well. :)

and to all who prayed for me as well. Luke, Darren and I will still never forget how nicely Isaac prayed for me. Super prayer message, ftw! :)

Christmas shopping with Joe and Bran after that was awesome. Today was an awesome day. :)

When we aint falling apart ♥

Mentari teaser buddies. :)

Hello;

Today was an awesome day. Woke up late, so knowing my brother has GTCI, I had to rush through everything. It was my fault, and we only got to know, we were... the earliest, and well, way before time. Way the go, Gid. :)

So, while roaming around, we bumped into familiar faces. Dylan and ZhuEn. And we all know, ZhuEn will walk up to me telling me.. "Oh huei minn, nice weather". So, ZEE. ;)

GTCI was awesome only until I got to know that, I had to impromptu-ed what I was going to say, because they decided to interview me as well. It was hard because, well. I didnt go for my projects. Only once. Yeah, very irresponsible but I had my reasons. So does, Darren, Justin, and Luke. :)

We had church at night when my lighting buddies were being very sarcastic. It was awesome. I liked how, we ended only at 11.30pm and receiving 7 miss calls from Brandon, just only because he wanted to say...

"Huei Minn, all the best for tomorrow. Big day tomorrow! We laser tag if you dont get straight As."

-My gay bestfriend, Brandon Teoh. :)

Shizzz, this reminds me...

PMR results it tomorrow. Im crying myself to sleep tonight, with fear, cold and anxiousness. No, Im actually very excited. I believe in faith. hahah. :)

I got you ♥

Hello;

PMR results are going to be out this week. My GA(s) of both years are busy with church and migrating themselves into Aussie. Crap, I feel so insecure. They were my GAs for a reason? Please lah.

BYE. ;)

Jolly Christmas everyone!

When we break the silent ♥

Eustace, David and Jaclyn.

Hello;

Conference is over. and it was good. Just maybe, I dont know. I thought last year's was better. Something I would never forget about conference is my project buddies. Namely, Darren, Justin, Jude, Fish, Jedida, Ben Liew, Tim Liew, Jia Jiet, Ian Choong, John Lim, Zhu Wei and a few more others. I like how we sat at the edge of the bus waving at random people also talking about food and going to sleep.

I come to know of 2 new dancing partners of mine this conference. Isaac and Zhu Wei. How much we danced cha cha with the little kids. Those were good times. I also like our chicken dance moments. Cha cha slide is still the best. because ZhuWei and I cannot differentiate our left and rights. :)

I think I should really get serious with blogging now. Heeh. :P

Bye.

I will never ask you to change ♥

Conference is in another few hours time. Skyping my Guardian Angel in the middle of the night is awesome. I come to know of me being scary. also very afraid for next Thursday. I shall read the papers before going to church later. :)

When he ages ♥

Hello;

I always like it when daddy's birthday is around the corner. Only because I get to see him more often. Usually, I dont. I get whatever I want, but I seemingly dont see my parents often. Simply because I wake up earlier than them during school days and my parents seems to get home really late at night.

So today was daddy's birthday, also had sessions of catching up with people I love. Joe and Bran. One of the most important people in my life. Now, supposedly. :)

Today was a great day. :]

When you held me ♥

Ive been spending much of my time with this talley nowadays. :)

Going to church and spending the whole day there, isnt so bad afterall.

"We will all feel so proud when we step here on Sunday" says Justin.

I like the idea of Jude cycling to church with a bicycle or a tricycle. I also like how he finishes my lunch without letting anyone touch bottles around him. Today was also pink day, Justin and I wore pink to church and Ben Gan was hyper. He like pink uniforms. Hahah. :)

I super cannot wait for lights training tomorrow.

I get to see the scary Darren and then expect things from him. (:

When the ocean hugs the shore♥

• Laser tag was awesome. :)
• Rapunzel was a disappointment.
• I realised everytime in the movies, James sits beside me.
• I find watching guys bowl funny, boring and scary at the same time
• I dont like going to the arcade.
• I like how strong James is.
• I find spending my time with JiaCherng, James and Isaac very unproductive.
• James and Isaac made me laugh.
• James and Isaac were very mean to me.
• I fattened James up with Ice Cream.
• James loves olives.
• James spat juice on me.
• Isaac was being very nice today.
• Isaac was my sitting buddy for the last 5 months.

I feel retarded. Today was awesome. I like Chicky and Duckie. Im going to miss my cow cow when she flies to Aussie, without me and start dating hot guys I dont know of. She always makes me jealous with her patches. SO COW. ):

Thats why I had you in mind ♥

Spanish Girl watcher. I also own alot of his things.

Expensive things, because he was my partner for LeoAmazingRace. :)

& he was my funny buddy. No, not funny bunny. :D

Today was such a boring day. Everybody was so emotional today. I dont wanna talk about it, but I'll pray for each one of you. SIB buddy, you better cheer up, I want my tickets for Madworld, then I'll sit with you. :P

I finished my Science research about Catalyst. I actually regret choosing that topic. If you havent started on holiday homework, I reckon you choose either Melanoma or Electrostatic Precipitator. really, or you'll have to blame yourself. Im in chapter 14 for Novel. Im only sharing my answers with people I love. Ask me and I'll think about it. *keep your fingers crossed*. x)

Someday I'll tell you ♥

Hello;

We had our long awaited piano concert today. That super adorable boy beside me, is my boyfriend. At least thats what he told everybody, he even told his father he likes me. He's 8 and he's a gentleman, really. He got me water, and applied his ladies first policy. He's swiss, and if only he was 15 or older. *big wide smile*

Anyway, Jackson gave me a surprise call this morning. He was lucky Im awake, it was so early. He's so nice. & all the texts I received was very encouraging. :)

At least I didnt screw up. because during rehearsals, I forgotten my lyrics and all. It was cool during the performance. I had the loudest applause from Zachary. Haaha. I also like the part where I forgotten one line and impromptu-ed with my own words. Heehe. That was vocals.

Choir was scary. I was standing underneath the cover of the grand piano, risking my life. & Jon was practically laughing at my shortness. Its always the height, but I know Im not short. :)

After that was church. Ben was in Singapore, so my lights buddies and I had to manage the lights system, ourselves. It was fun, and everything went well. It was an awesome day, until I got home, at least. The electricity was off from 6pm-1am. I also found out Zhu En was telling everybody my secrets of which only both of us and Edwin share about.

I was so bored, I read another book. Im listening to Mathews' advices. Im feel like an angel. :)

I have a dream ♥

Beijing, yay! :)

Hello;

I had a very very very terrible nightmare yesterday. I cannot remember the last time I had a nightmare, but it was a long time ago. It was a very horrible nightmare, I woke up crying. Really. Maybe its because of the book I read before I slept. or, Hao Yi's sister. *flahbacks of ladybug, shizz*

As a result, I wanted to watch Rapunzel really badly. So I made Jon follow me. But instead he decided to ditch me because he thinks its a cartoon and cartoons never turn out nice. Pffts. There was also a hyper room naming Bach. Hahah. It was funny. I like Steve and Joshua, but Boey just scares me. I cannot wait to see them again tomorrow. :)

Rapunzel was stupid. There were no seats at all. I was so angry and I promise to try again on Monday, just not MidValley anymore. So, my brother picked "the next 3 days". It was so boring, I died, literally. & I had to make him explain the title of the movie to me. We also had the best of ice creams today. Then we got shock in the eye at Robinsons' before heading home. :)

Tomorrow's piano concert. I have to memorise my vocals. Bye. :)

My hopes are rising ♥

School was so fun. I saw the unexpected. Im so happy. :)

Who said our canteen is under renovation? *stares at Mathews*. :(

When I caught you ♥

No, I didnt crop Eugene out, it was the Photographer's fault. :)

It's December. and it's going to be a great month. Im so excited for school tomorrow. Heeehehe. Duckie is a very big cheater. She bluffed. :(

This computer is so laggy. Facebook has issues with me. Big issues. ):