More awesome than I know.

I realised my day spent in church today is longer than my working hours. Longer but worth the time. Was in church since 8am right up to 5.30pm. So the lighting crew did the lightings for 2 events, today. The Chempaka awards, a homeschooling center and a hi-Tea concert with Busco and Juwita Suwito.

For this event, Ben decided to put me under spotlight. Something I cannot do since last year, because of the weight of the machine and how weak I am, to not being able to lift and put down the spotlight even with the tripod on. Tim was my partner and it was pretty fun. Despite the fact that he left a scar on my hand that will last a lifetime. Just only because he used the lock to scratch me, by accident. It started bleeding then later it swelled up so bad and the cut was so deep that it's obvious that a scar is forming. :(

Fact : I have very sensitive and thin skin.

So after handling the spotlight for all the events today. My arm muscle started aching like mad and I know my muscle is building. #accomplishment .

Dance dinner after that was amazing. I like tutsy putsy with Jordan. He's the best guy to have dinner and dance around with. :)

Bee.

Work today, was amazing. Frustrating, but amazing. It was really fun, especially with my fussy boss which I can talk back to, since he's my uncle. He's a cool man. He protects me when customers get too friendly with me and ask for my number. I got my tactics to save fake numbers on their phones if they insist. My uncle is the best. Pretty bias in a way to the other employees, but thats just him. So I started telling him my ideas on a project and he liked it and decided to work on that. I felt the satisfaction, after a week of internship there. Which wont be ending anytime sooner.

Later we had a short practice for the concert tomorrow in church and our church's homeschool ministry performance thingy. They guys and I were there the whole night and we had a lot of fun. I got an appreciation "honors" sticker from the boys because Im the only girl in the light crew and the WHOLE technical team. I felt....... manly.

Im really tired now. My face, is making my cry. No, really. I dont know why are there so many pimples on my face. >:(

Bunched.

I really dont understand that gathered peace thing. Its so weird.
Just thought I should let it out.

I think I should really get back to blogging and stop slacking. & thats what Im gonna do.
Exams are far off gone, and I got back most of my results already. The big crosses and question marks on my papers were a total eyesore. I need to work harder than a bee for next year. I got big dreams. :)

Thankful.

I have so many awesome friends that I would like to thank, personally. Despite what I have been going through lately, Im glad to have these people by my side, giving me all their moral support and upholding me in prayers. Theyre a bunch of monkeys that I would hug them till they turn purple. :)

I found this picture. One of the 2 most important people in my life. 

Look at your face, GIDEONTAYHANMINN! 

Exams are in less than 15days, I havent started studying anything yet. I need somebody to make me study, for good. Justin Hiew should start texting me again. He motivates me, in a way. I dont know why. 

I need to see things in different perspectives and in a whole new level. & Im counting on YOU, God. :)

All I know is that I should.

Look at those rocks. Theyre so cute and adorable.
Theyre so smiley. :)

School has been really hectic lately. All the more, exams are coming soon. Then again, I havent been putting effort in my studies. I need to do well this term, or I will die next year.

Anyway, today was really exciting. We dissected white mice for bio class. They were really adorable, then they were left unconscious. So we dissected it. We had extra time after looking at all their basic organs, so Benny and all the ambitious and smart people from our class decided to untangle the mouse's small intestines. It was really dangly and long. We even saw its brain and I really thought the fallopian tube was cool. Then it was time for burial again. The last 2 burials we had were hilarious, and today was as funny. I had flowers for nibbles. :')

Okay now. I need to start doing my homework.

Unfriended.

After all this time we've been spending together.

All the senseless yet never ending talks,
& fun times we had together,
our friendship, never lasted.

I made that happen, Im not saying this is the end of our friendship,
I dont know why and how you have misinterpret whatever I said,
but all I know is that now you dont even care about me anymore.

You know, when you said,
"Sure, hueiminn. Youve ruin a very big part of my life.."
These words really affected me, and how Ive been haunted by whatever you said. Everytime I close my eyes, whatever you said to me will start coming back, and then it'll bring me back to how cruel I have been, to you. Maybe what I did was wrong, maybe even white lies would do for that situation. Im sorry for being a total bish for telling you whatever you already know and have judged me with. 

I wont stop praying for you, no matter how much youre against my religion. I would really wanna be friends with you again. If you get what I mean.

So there's school tomorrow. I havent done much this holiday, in fact not even a little progress in my studies.

Except for regurgitation in ruminants, and their rumen, reticulum, omasum and abomasum.
because I like cows and goats.
Naw, not really because it was written that way in my reference book.

There's a test tomorrow for Biology, which I bound to fail.
Im just gonna study a little bit more and sleep.
Only because I slept for 3 and a half hours last night. :/

Oh funny,
Ps. Michael Koh : Swimmers are like Gorillas, theyre big and HUGE.
-everybody laughed.
Ben Yong : Im going to the mamak now.

Justin got himself retainers like Ugly betty.
>D

You can take this, from me.

So, because Ive been pondering about what you have told me.
The hope you had in me, and the chances you gave me.

I have come to realise that,

Im only keeping you back, because I am afraid to lose again.
I am scared, I feel insecure.

I dont know how to say this to you,
but all I know is that,
you dont have to think about how I would feel,
you can leave me,

because I dont deserve anyone, close to you.

Family Conference.

ICCH. :)

So after dinner with Jamie and Emily, my brother and I decided to go for family conference. Ian made us all crack up for the great. Especially the PMR and squishing mosquitoes part. I shant go further or my thigh issue will be mentioned, with a little penguin stomach. :)

Ian : During sermon, you cannot kill mosquitoes by hitting them with both of your palms, instead you squeeeze them till they die.

Ian : There're only 2 subjects that are important for PMR, Kajian tempatan, and geography.
- : Arent they the same?
Ian : No huei minn, in kajian tempatan you learn about pipes and all
- : Thats KH.
Ian : Shucks, I think Im old. *mumbles about something else*.

So, because of that, I get chocolate truffles from him, tomorrow. :DDD